Hello, Elsa.

My desires are dying, the calling remains to be there and I’m making an attempt to be okay with this.

I’ve a dream of going round city singing with a small jazz band. I might like to be surrounded by music and musicians 24/7. I’m fairly good at it as I’ve been advised many, many instances. My factor is, I don’t simply sing songs; I inform tales. I’ve the flexibility to emote with my voice. On this particular dream, I don’t should be BIG; I simply should sing in entrance of individuals. It doesn’t have to steer me to riches, however I might like to be doing this and this alone and incomes to reside considerably comfortably. That’s my dream.

The calling is, once I hear a reside instrument, a voice inside bugs me till I’m up in entrance of individuals. I can’t assist it. It eggs me on till I’m there. It at all times feels although, as if I encounter push again from life and circumstances that come up that push me away from this dream, time and time once more; however the calling stays and it received’t shut up!

Recently, with all the pieces happening on this planet round me and in my private life; I ask myself, what’s the purpose? 

How do you retain desires alive when it looks like all the pieces is crumbling? I inform myself, possibly it’s simply my ego; there’s a genocide happening throughout the globe. There’s censorship and individuals are dealing with extreme hardships; why ought to my desires even matter? When is it okay to come back to phrases with the demise of a dream?

Pluto is tiptoeing into my eleventh home. 

– Pepe in Costa Mesa

Hey, Pepe.  I really feel you right here, and really feel for you. I’m glad you talked about a small bit your astrology, as a result of it does provide perception into your predicament. You say your desires are dying (Pluto in eleventh). I say, your desires are reworking.

I even have your chart and it’s fairly fascinating, in mild of your downside. I see your, “Mounted” dream. I’m speaking about Pisces rising and a variety of planets in Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius.  However I additionally see important Virgo in your seventh home. You might have the flexibility to “morph”, however I think you venture it.

Saturn in Pisces is transiting your Virgo planets. You most likely really feel your age, really feel blocked and such; you might even be judging your self.  However you may have the flexibility to shift this.

Moderately than letting your dream die, how would you’re feeling about taking the “remodel” possibility?  Let’s say, you go searching and see the identical stuff you’ve been seeing however choose to futz with the maths so issues add up in a brand new means. Can you continue to sing? In fact. Your expertise will stay intact as long as you apply.  Does it should be “all or nothing”? Many artists work a day job.

Is there an issue with the thought of getting a few of what you need?  Singing with a band on the weekends?  My concept right here is your dream is Mounted, however should you’ll settle for lower than what you need, you’ll nonetheless have most of what you need.  Additional, you’ll hold your abilities up and who is aware of what occurs from there.

To reply your different query, your desires do matter. We should always all be in search of our soul’s calling, however sadly there are quite a few components thwarting us at the moment. You talked about a few of them.

I’m in the same circumstance.  Google prevents folks from discovering this website. I nonetheless write.  Would I write extra, if power got here again to me? In fact. However many people are on a hunger food regimen proper now.

Backside line, should you suppose I ought to proceed to write down, then you must most likely proceed to sing.  I additionally don’t prefer to let the power again up on me. By the seems to be of your chart, you’d most likely do effectively to contemplate this facet as effectively.

In case I wasn’t clear, let me reiterate: I think you’re extra adaptable than you suppose.  It’s one of many issues the Saturn transit would carry to the entrance.

Good luck!