This Pining Over Reuben sequence is supposed as an example a Venus Neptune change from quite a lot of angles. For one factor, with Venus Neptune it’s hardly ever clear who’s utilizing who.

As I discussed in the unique publish, Reuben was a guitarist and the lead singer in a neighborhood band. He had quite a lot of ladies, women actually, as we have been all very younger. The women made a degree of dancing proper in entrance of him; dancing for him versus dancing with the person who had escorted them to the dance flooring.

I watched all this, learning the impact of the catbird seat. I knew that anybody on stage was enhanced. I labored day bar and I loved being on the stage by day however within the shadows at night time. I used to be working quite a few angles.

Venus Neptune is about seduction. The women who danced in entrance of, Reuben did rating. He sometimes selected one every night, however he had a watch on me, sitting alone behind the room, as I knew he would.

I knew he would as a result of whenever you’re within the catbird seat, most individuals deal with you a sure manner and it’s the anomaly that catches your consideration. Reuben would look over the gang in my path, questioning why I wasn’t shaking my ass for his too. I intentionally created the a state of affairs.

I did the identical factor with the bartender on this place. There are solely so many varieties that come right into a bar and right here once more I made myself the anomaly. I used to be amused when he requested me varied questions so he might categorize me, as I ordered my commonplace orange juice and soda water.

It was merely unattainable to inform what the hell I used to be doing on this bar, exhibiting up for the primary set when the bar was half-empty, not ingesting, not shaking my ass for, Reuben however clearly, clearly having fun with the music as I did benefit from the music! Venus Neptune *is* music.

I appreciated this confusion for quite a few causes. I used to be positively learning. I’ve at all times wished to study every little thing I might and you need to admit that is fascinating however it was additionally an awesome protection (Saturn Neptune) and distraction.

Heartbroken and confused on the whole round males after my (eventual) husband and I cracked up they manner we did, I simply didn’t wish to get entangled with anybody so this labored out for me. It was superb, really.

Reuben would come off the stage and dance with the ladies who danced for him however he couldn’t method me behind the room, even when he wished to. Not with out risking rejection that may not be good for his picture.

Plain and easy, I used, Reuben. He was fodder for my fantasies and his precise character by no means entered the equation.  Matter of reality, I actively and consciously filtered something I didn’t like.

To be continued.